Wanderings of a currently diffuse consciousness

To paraphrase Where Angels Fear¹: ‘I don’t get the hype over multitasking - you mean there are people who don’t think about ten things at once?’

My mind is exactly the same. I never stop thinking. About everything and nothing and all in between. And sometimes it feels like I’m thinking about it all at once.

The way I think is naturally reflected in life. I am, by nature, a jack of all trades and master of none. A butterfly, always seeking new things. Sometimes even returning to them.

And so like many things in my life — and in Life at large — it is a blessing and a curse.²: Beside my butterfly nature, getting my brain to shut down is always a fight.

Sometimes a fight I lose. Occasionally bordering on often I get hit with an idea that has to get out or it will dissolve. Like this article.

How I think is something I plan to explore in more depth in the near future. But it’s not the point of this article…

For someone used to thinking about a thousand things at once…

For someone used to an incessant background clamour of ideas…

For someone used to the inescapable company of their own mind and its myriad facets…

Thinking about only one thing is (near enough literally) mind-blowing.

For a ten track mind, the opportunity to enjoy the nuance of just one song — less the infuriating interference of the others played simultaneously — is unmissable.

It is dangerous, too. The relative peace of a solitary focus becomes addictive.

Though that’s not dangerous, not inherently.

The danger lies in wait where that focus isn’t something but someone.

It by nature encourages you to become dependent on that someone who is more than someone. Both mind and heart. Splits you wide. Vulnerable.

On that note, I am interested as to if WAF had the same or similar experience with Her. Or maybe it is just me…